I had gone into labor just hours before my scheduled induction, and rather than let my body do its thing, the hospital staff told me they would start me on the scheduled induction (ie. the evil Pitocin), otherwise I'd have to go home. Mind you, my contractions were intense, and I was only getting about 60 seconds of relief in between. Add that to the fact that this was my first time in labor, and have been scared S***-less about the pain and process of delivering a baby since I was little (my mom had 5 kids, so I kind of knew about the process of birth long before other kids my age).
After hours of laboring, an epidural, pokings and proddings from doctors, students, nurses, etc. without much progression, Soren's heart rate was dropping and the staff was concerned about his health. His big head was also wedged in the birth canal, and he was also a big baby (9lb 5ox). Exhausted, confused and emotionally drained, I relented and said that I thought the c-section would be best for the well-being of my son.
new guidelines from the American College of Obstetricians and Gynecologists, it seems like VBACs are becoming more encouraged.
The VBAC in theory is the way I'd like to go, but I can't help but worry about complications or ending up with a c-section in the end again, after all the hard work and fatigue of labor. My recovery from the surgery was surprisingly great, but who knows what might happen this time.
I wish I was the strong, confident kind of woman who could enjoy a home birth (since I often consider myself a crunchy hippie and all that) but when it comes to labor, I'm about as independent as a hog on ice (to quote Tom Waits' Cemetery Polka). Especially after the awful pain of contractions, definitely not as bad as I expected, and I thought I had a pretty high tolerance for pain.
Not my finest momentI'd really love to hear your stories, especially if you've gone through a VBAC or c-section. I'm not allowing myself to get sucked into too many online searches on the topic, since you tend to find horror stories of all sorts on the interwebs.