There are so many things for me to be thankful for this month, number one being that my family is together, happy and healthy after a month of uncertainty and fear.
I don't feel like I've fully come to terms with what has happened, emotionally. Certain things will stir up tears, like bringing out my knitting again after working on it continuously next to S's hospital bed. Or reading an article about parents losing a child.
It's all so raw for me, and because my life is consumed with taking care of the boys, I don't have much time to deal with my emotions in the thick of things. Diapers need changing, meals need to be cooked, and my needs take a back seat. Once the kids are in bed, it's hard to conjure up those feelings again when I have the time to sit with them. But slowly I'm inhabiting those memories, even if it's when we're outside enjoying the leaves and I get teary, thinking that Soren might not have been here to cover his brother in them and feel the warm sun on his face.
my yearly contribution and seriously the best recipe). I wish you a very happy Thanksgiving, my American readers. May your bellies and hearts be full!