July 9, 2012


Every day with a baby is bittersweet.  I eagerly await that first something, whether it's a first word, first step, first tooth.  At the same time, I'm wistfully yearning for those plump  baby features that are quickly merging into those of a little boy.
It's weird that I'm homesick during these moments with Jude, even before they've passed.  It's like I'm missing them already, even when trying to be present with the experience (does this make sense???).  Since he's my last baby, I try to hang onto everything about this sweet, happy little person.
Last week, Jude officially turned one.  One!  I remember eagerly and nervously awaiting his birth last summer,
then finally getting to meet him, perfectly healthy and beautiful, even covered in thick vernix.
It's been an amazing, chaotic, tearful and wonderful year, being the mother to this Little Bitty Pretty One (the boys love that song).
What can I say that hasn't been said by millions of mothers throughout space and time regarding how quickly their children grow up.  Yet here he is, eating cake and ice cream by himself at the table, one short year later.  It blows my mind.
I have no regrets having added another person to our family, and am happy to see his smile every morning and cuddle him throughout the day.  He is the most pleasant and easy little being, and I'm so grateful that he came into our lives 360-some days ago.
Jude, happy, happy birthday my sweet one!  xoxoxoxo


  1. That flew by!! Holy cow. And yes, what you said does make sense. I know I can say the same - already mourning the passing of a discovery or first moment while relishing it at the same time. By the way, he is SO cute! I love the shots of him curiously nibbling his cupcake :)

  2. I think you're feeling what the Japanese call "Mono no aware" or "the sadness of things".

    From the Kokin Wakashu:

    Indeed how they resemble this fleeting world of ours!
    The cherry blossoms.
    No sooner do we gaze at them in bloom then they have scattered

  3. I understand exactly what you mean! With C being my first, I think for the first few months, I was so focused on just getting through it and him not being so needy. Now that he is more and more independent all the time, I wish I had savored those baby stages more! We have to get our little men together soon!

  4. What a beautiful post dedicated to such a handsome young man! I truly can't believe it's been 1 year already either o.O

    Happy 1st birthday to the birthday boy!

  5. He looks so thoughtful all the time. And you're right- he's a cutie, even with the birth slime. Ha! That boy is a charmer!


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